Talk to Urologist on Sexual Disorder

its been 4 years suffering from disease which i dont know the name actually mei exam de rha tha or time bht kam tha or teacher chila rha tha ke jaldi kro and mei bht fear me agay tha k fail ho jaonga laki achanak se penis pe bht zor aya and sudden discharge hwa us time normal tha but jaisy he me ghar aya i was feeling k i dont have penis and abhi tk aise he hai rozana emission ahtelam itni medicine kae hai ke stomach kharab kr deua kindly koi rehnumai farmaye please mei hakeemo ke pass bhi gya homeopathic walo k pas bhi lakin meri internal condition itni kharab hai ek urologist ne muje 2 saal tk mujy antidepressent di or ab mei itna weight gain kr gya sath liver be effect ho gya hai i just want to commit sucide if this problem not get well please koi help kr dain